5 days and nights without Eli

I simultaneously want to cry, get drunk,


look at pictures of him, go out dancing,


call to see how he's doing, go karaoke-ing!!!,


stand in his room and sigh while I look at his crib, take a long shower,


think about him, run around the house screaming after his bedtime,


talk about him, pay attention to my husband, etc...


Also, he now gives kisses.